Wow I've really slacked off on my blogging.. I told myself that I would keep up on it throughout the weekend... well theres always next weekend to prove that theory!! I read Brian's blog and have to agree.. there are definetly some friends that can say things about your weight, but when it comes to needing their support to drop those pounds.. forget about it..  I am blessed with my best friend, Kelly... she is a huge support to me here, she is constantly picking me up when I am down and walking beside me when I just need the support.. I know you will read this... I love you Kelly..

 

Brian is my support through online, phone and texting.. knowing that he is counting on me.. does help me get through the days a little easier..  but through it all I find myself still struggling at times.. trying to talk myself into just this "once" or just a "little" bit wont hurt.. But as we all know.. once and a little bit add up. 

 

The last couple years have been difficult ones for me.. I've been in and out of depression, more in then out.. slowly gaining more and more weight.. A few months ago I was diagnosed with Polysistic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which surprisingly causes depression and weight gain..its a hormonal imbalance that the birth control pill can usually regulate.. my levels are now regulated, so losing weight should not be a problem now for me..

 

I gained weight for both my pregnancies but then there was a reason.  It's difficult to see pictures of what I looked like just 2 years ago and see how I've let myself go.. I know that I need to stop being angry at myself and accept myself now and know that everyday I'm bettering myself..

 

I am  30 years old and hermit myself inside my house when I'm not working.. and you know what.. I'm damn tired of it!! Life is to short and I dont want to look back 2 more years from now saying "if only"...

 

We can do this Brian!!! Love ya